Remember when I dove into the crowd
And I got a bloody knee under my skin, a mark from wiping out
It brings back the memories
Every bone's been broken
But my heart is still wide open

I can't stop
Don't care if I lose
Baby you are the weapon I choose
These wounds are self inflicted
I'm going down in flames for you
Baby you are the weapon I choose
These wounds are self inflicted
One more thing I'm addicted too

With each scar there's a map that tells a story what a souvenir of Young love's like jumping out
An airplane riding a tidal wave on an ocean of emotion
My heart rips me wide open

I can't stop
Don't care if I lose
Baby you are the weapon I choose
These wounds are self inflicted
I'm going down in flames for you
Baby you are the weapon I choose
These wounds are self inflicted
One more thing I'm addicted too

smile :]

today 31march2009 is a sunny day ^0^
at first i was moody ..i forced myself not to look at u ...but i just couldn't
n i was hoping tat i could meet u all of a suddent
on the way bakk mommy was siting wiv aunty so we were talkin to karman abt the folio thingy as usual !!!!
duh-uh....tats all my mom is concern of ...
n everyone were like wow wads happening
n i saw him ...
i was smiling without any reasons my facial expression change dramaticly from moody to happy n suprised i saw him winking at me i can tell u is not his eyes problem or my eyes problem it was 100%sure i am serious...!!!!
i was smiling n laughing after tat ...
even if tat thing is not funny i would just laugh at it...just like the buggy car...i was laughing at it!!!!
my mom was like wut happen u meet who y r u laughing hehehehe like tat n i was like ....
faking it...i said duhh tat buggy was funny n cute i wan to drive one !!!!but actually i didnt wan her to know anything abt this !!!!
mission accomplished!!!!yays
i can get 100 marks for faking it yays!!!!
paiiseh i am so gay today !!!!yay happy :]
even if i know he dont likes me i can just tell u tat i have a very great time even if i cant get u i would still be satisfied abt tat :]
it makes me happy to see that u r happy n not lonely
things change n yeah sometimes u dont really have to get something to be happy
maybe just imagining n thinking abt it could make it better :]

smile and dont drop the smile darlings :]

dream of u

i dreamt of u ...
u were so close
i saw u holding my wrists u were saying hey y is ur hands so small
can i take a look at ur palms n u said is the same
ur smile makes me happy...
but i know that in my heart we were never meant to be
u dont even like me
i like u but u dont like me so i cant help it rite
even if i force myself not to go out i still cant
i just felt so insecure when i didnt see u
that feeling was like y am i here in this hell place
y is everyone not understand how i feel
n i felt a mood swing when u r not thr ...
i dont know how am i going to survive without u ....
i cant control myself when i am inside i felt like crying n felt like finding someone to lean on n blast out my feelings but no one understands me
i have to wear the freagine happy mask to everyone but u ...
i miss u n i love u

wake me up

i just felt like lying down n close my eyes...
i wonder how long i can stay lying down thr...
waiting for someone that looks like a prince??[too naive thinking it wont happen will it??unless i am in a role play of sleeping beauty maybe i can see a prince lol >w<]
is he gonna show up ?1 year 10 years 100 century ??
will i ever meet him
at least just 1 look i would be happy
thinking too much...tat will not happen
ok got dinner tomorrow yay !!!!
food...n i get to see sean dylan joie justin victor n much more!!!yay i am darn happy we're gonna watch Marley n Me if i am not wrong or i dont mind watching confession of a shopaholic!!!!
oh yea!!!!is been a long time i never watch movie
n we're gona go eat desert at Sweet Chat yay is so pretty
then were gonna go blow water ^0^
excited!!!!!!!
yay^0^
happy but i was still hoping tat i can meet him but oh well i didnt get the chance to ask him out or should i say i didnt even mention abt ''hey whr ya gonna go on da holidays ''*sighs*
wtf forget abt it lar cuz hes goin HK i hope he buy some postcard so i can ask some from him cause i wanted to see mini n mickey mouse it must be really pretty thr
HL we miss u muackxxxx
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If I'd only known
It would break us
I'd have done anything just to save us

'Cause you're all I have
When the world comes down on me
You're the one I love
And I'm begging you to see
You're all, you're all, you're all I have
You are, you are the one I love
You are, you are, you're all I have

You've forgiven me
But it doesn't change
The guilt I feel when you mention his name
No more innocence
How to trust again
Wanna believe that you won't do the same

And every time we fight
We're gettin' closer
I slowly die inside
I'm scared it's over

nOt Eating!!!!!

ohmwagawddxx........i am so freagine fat i have got to cut down on food n start exercising
he loves me he loves me not he loves me he loves me not!!!
counting the petals on the rose...
i keep thinking y him y not someone else..??
n y do i have to always go outside to see if he's there...
y do i have to act so weird when i see him cant i be more not nervous...
urgghh my hands r sweating n heart is pounding is he gonna come n find me n talk or is he gonna see me stand thr until he goes home..
the questions keep spinning in my head...
1step 2step 3steps yes!!!!!boo ya!!!!he did come n talk to me maybe is because his frens went home so he have to come n talk to me bla bla bla mehhhhh....
gawddd can i stop thinking about him for a day ...
hmmmm....dinner n dance i cant wait for tat day ...i really nid to cut down so tat i wont feel so fat on tat day
n i have got to give a gud impression when i meet my frens i mean on thursday ...gawdd i am so nervous....what do i have to say i mean it has been a long time since i last see them rite??do i have to dress up nicely i mean [duhh so obvious tat i dress up nicely but sometimes in a weird way >=<]
sighs
without HL to tell me weather is nice or not is just bakk to zero...
i wonder if he's partaying wiv his blondies frens...
i hope he remember us...
hmm...i feel like i am repeating this again n again ...what the hell...
is the first thought in my mind rite so i have got to share it in ma bloggg xD
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MyHotComments

what am i thinking

u look at me...yea i got tons of friends...
but the only one that understand what i think how i feel is just a few ...
not much ppl know what i am thinking...
i dont know how to describe this feeling...
is just so EMO...
ok cut the crap..!!!!
get to the POINT!!!!
ok u seee i dont know if its just ngam ngam or izit really faith??
i got no idea...when i tot i couldn't see him tat day he appear but i saw his face wiv surprise...
is just a flash....the gap between me n him...i dont think i can ever reach his level...
is just like a normal rock wiv a diamond...
would it be tat we were never meant to be
or wutt i got no idea i am confussed weather i am inlove or not...
argghhh
is just so confussing but truely when i am wiv him i can just smile n dont have to show my sad face is auto...
i cant control it...
aix....i got no idea
about the dinner n dance i really hope tat he would go but his sis just buy a ticket so probably i would just meet his sis than meeting him...
freaked out!!!!! darn it....i felt like he knew it or wutt...but i hope he din know it ...
ok abt the other guy..XXXXxxxxxxxxx told him no more space for more so sorry but yea i cant cheat love...sorry...
nvm lar this things just folo faith is we r meant to be is gud but id we r not meant to be then is ok maybe i am just thinking too much...
i got no idea someone help me joie T.T...help me
Hsian loong help me...
i miss u all very badly...feeling sick n tired of my life
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I have known you my whole life
When you were ten, you said you'd make me your wife
Eight years later you won me over
Just as I took the world on my shoulders

I got used to living without you
Endless phone calls and dreaming about you
Always said that you were my man to be
But I guess I was in love with your memory

You know I love you, I really do
But I can't fight anymore for you
And I don't know, maybe we'll be together again
Sometime, in another life
In another life

I know I said that I would keep my word
I wished that I could save you from the hurt
But things will never go back to how we were
I'm sorry I can't be your world

You know I love you, I really do
But I can't fight anymore for you
And I don't know, maybe we'll be together again
Sometime, in another life
In another life (another life)

The way you're holding on to me
Makes me feel like I can't breathe
Just let me go, just let me go
It just won't feel right inside
God knows I've tried

You know I love you, you know I do
But I can't fight anymore for you
And I don't know, maybe we'll be together again
Sometime, in another life

In another life, in another life

In another life ...

Oh nOz

Oh ma goddzzx
am i in love again ...??
everytime i see that charming eyes of yours i just cant resists ...i wanted to look at it longer
when i look at u i feel so myself n i just dont know y after looking at u i am all messed up i keep missing shots >W<
i ask myself what is happening to me i tot i was treating him like a best fren when i realize it was more isnt it??
am i thinking too much i really dont know
i would love to stay this way cause once u had it n when u lose it u will lose it forever...
either u have it forever or u lose it forever like the past...
ppl just walk in to ur life n the best thing is just have a happy pictures n happy days...its already enough
dont have to have it...sometimes having something is more pain then losing someone...
this is cause u know tat he would leave u 1 days...n u just nid to wait for tat day ..unless we r all grown up enough to have a steady one...if not the relationships wont last long...
i really do love u but i am very happy because i can always talk to u n look into ur charming eyes without needing any reasons ^0^
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When you´re 'round
I lose myself inside your mouth
you´ve got brown eyes
Like no one else
Baby make it to me

Again and again
Again, again, again, again
Never stop again and again
Again, again, a-a-again, again
Never stop, oh
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He never really saw me
Or waited when we were hooking up
Yeah he'd a never last
Last week when I was sad
You said that you knew
My eyes change from kinda green
To kinda blue heya

When you´re 'round
I lose myself inside your mouth
you´ve got brown eyes
Like no one else
Baby make it to me

Again and again
Again, again, again, again
Never stop again and again
Again, again, a-a-again, again
Never stop

They tell me if I leave him
Baby would you be there
'cause maybe you could
Be m-m-mine all the t-t-time