memories just brings bak the tears of joy

whn i done the facebook quiz about what type of friend r u
i remember how we all fight n argue last time..
its just so stupid we r all jerks we fight for little things just for some little thing
we didnt want to stop the fight we dont want to surrender n we actually risk our friendship ...
but at last we all said sorry ... i felt so stupid why did we argue ..
i just felt a load rushing tears on my eyes when i think about it...
its just so stupid...
but yeah fighting n arguing made our friendship more longer lasting...we sure did have loads of fun n trashy habbits even sluttier words n now without all those arguments n fighting noise i just felt like a stranger in the crowd...
i feel so weird n WTF y am i here in this place y ...who is these peeps?? y r they acting like this y do they all have to wear a mask on their face when they r talking to some other ppl...
i mean its obvious that even i am not feeling like myself i just feel like hey am i saying the same freagine thing again n again ?? y am i doing this to myself
this is drivin me nuts...
but 1 thing is that even if i am strong in the outside i notice that i can cry that easily for anything that hurts me...i just cant control the tears i want to hold it bakk but it just falls out that easy...n i dont like it...i dont want to be looked down like the old kido i use to be ...
i am changing for the better trying not to make history repeat itself trying to hold bak my feelings to a boy...but is it working i really dont know ...
i guess i dont even know what is love ...