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i look at the sky today n i was thinking...
y is the sky so plain...y is the sky always blue , white but sometimes is so dark n horrible...i keep asking myself y ..
n i figured out tat the sky is like ur feelings whn u r sad the sky will become dark n it will rain...
y cant the sky be colourfull y cant it be perfect...
it take 1 second to forget u but it took me forever to forget you...i walked away tat day i told myself is i walk away they would be happier he would think tat i am over him...every step tat i take is a mistake if i walk back to him...
he is like a cold wall n i am stupid enough to ram my head on it a few times n say 'ouch tat is so darn pain...i am so sad' but i still ram my head on it...i bet ppl would be like 'woaaahhh crystal r u stupid he dont love u cant u forget him u r such n dumbass!!!!'
yeah i am such a dumbass i think again n again y am i doing this to myself...!!!
finally i know y ...is because i felt tat no one is around me...felt so lonely...for the first time
is like standing in the rain wiv a bunch of frens tat r dummies...they dont really know me too well...
all i know is evrytime whn i talk to them they just cant listen ..is like i am talking nuts to a few beans ...it doesnt make any sense...sighs...single life really do suck...but sighs..
i just cant forget his face...his features...his height oh my lord..!!!!
shit man crystal !!!shut up!!!only a few person knows wad i am thinking n wad i feel n wad kind of person i am...
now i din chat wiv mama for a week after wad happen...sighs...i shouldn't have ignored him...y did i ignored him tat friday...it just happen so fast n the next thing u know u got no more frens in the world...
is just like a sharp knife poking ur head...
sighs...whn u got everything in the world u just found out tat u didnt nid them n the one tat nidded u have been rejected...i told u tat i am ok but i turn bak n walk away because i didnt want to let u know tat i am crying....
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if your so sick of love songs
so tired of tears
you say you love me
why aint you here?
im so sick of your love songs
so sad and slow
but i just cant turn off the radio


gotta fix that calendar i have
that's marked july 15th
cause it seems like you forgot
that was our anniversary
when i heard your song it
made it hard to erase your memory
now when i hear your song i know it's there for me
i cant believe that you're
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i really dont know who i love now......i look bak at the past n i say wow i should have rejected him than let him play wiv my feelings...i dont trust love ...waiting for the day to past whr i cant finally know who i really love him or him...lol