first day of school

today i woke up at 4 in the morning...i was so excited to go to school
whn i go to my class...i feel like something was missing is like different faces laughter sound heart beats...
joie was missing hsian loong was missing too
but i missed most was my beloved yao...
in school i felt like i am standing in the middle of the crowd whr everything is moving so fast everyone was pushing n walking no one stoped...
even if i pass by someone i know they would just turn around n walk away i met 3 person tat did the same thing MM,E,S...is like i am a thin air even if we pass by we r surpose to act like we dont know each other...
this reminds me of form 1 ...it was so difficult to find someone tat truely treats u with the heart...[i mean frens not bf i was too young to think abt relationships bakk then]
i missed yao so much...i cant stop thinking abt him...
everyone was like so happy but y am i feeling so weird ...is like i am acting happy...i dont understand y ...i feel tat without joie n hl i am nothing but a bug the tiniest one...
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你不是真正的快樂
你的傷從不肯完全的癒合
我站在你左側 卻像隔著銀河
難道就真的抱著遺憾一直到老了 然後才後悔著

你不是真正的快樂
你的笑只是你穿的保護色
你決定不恨了 也決定不愛了
把你的靈魂關在永遠鎖上的軀殼

你不是真正的快樂
你的傷從不肯完全的癒合
我站在你左側 卻像隔著銀河
難道就真的抱著遺憾一直到老了

你值得真正的快樂
你應該脫下你穿的保護色
為什麼失去了 還要被懲罰呢
能不能就讓悲傷全部結束在此刻
重新開始活著