confussion ...

[a happy day i guess][11jan2009][9:06PM]
i felt a sharp pain going through my chest...
is a feeling tat i never had so far...
i felt like a cold distance between us...
well i would say this today n get over it tomorrow
but is just like very normal girl...
if u see ur guy out thr talking too much to other girls u would feel jealous rite..
if u say no i am very sure tat u r lying...
i feel jealous too...what if i am the one talking to guys out thr how would u feel??
jealous heart broken thinking too much!!!
i bet u will feel this way rite
not tat i dont trust u but is just tat jealousy kills it kills everything even urself...
it killed me now
every word i type i would hide i wouldn't want u to know tat i am jealous i wouldn't want u to feel sorry
i wouldn't want u to feel guilty...
i dont know how to say this but is just tat its hard to explaine...
sighs complications i trust u but is just tat the jealousy inside of me is taking part of me bit by bit one by one...

a poem for all of u
love, life , who u r
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love
what is love?
is it a horrible thing or the most beautiful thing?

tell me what do u feel whn everyone around u never understands who u r
the type of girl tat use to party hard n talk the same thing for an hour and never get bored of it
finally became someone tat is acting like she can be happy everyday even if things happen

she can be happy at the outside but does anyone know how much sadness is inside her?
no one understands
maybe family problems will only make us grow up n understand what is life

life is unfair no one is perfect
even Britney spears the one tat people r dying to be is not perfect
everyone acts in life n is just part of the routine
when u get use to it
it will be ok
but if u're not use to it u will just end up crying for hours because no one remembers ur name
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"sometimes you just have to pretend like everything is okay n just cry inside ... crying because of no reason maybe the reason is tat i dont understand what u r thinking....
is so confusing and i am useless...i dont understand what u r thinking...dont know how u feel but all i know is tat u will always be happy because u got a bunch of frens family n me ^^
no matter how unhappy i am it will be over tomorrow n tats life
if u start keeping too much unhappyness n never forget about it , it will become a monster in u ....so yea after writing this i will be more happier tomorrow ^^"
new day new step new creation of life...tats how it rolls